Blue

I woke up today to a heavy rain poring down outside. No wonder I was sound asleep! I bet with some snores along the way too! =p

So, in getting the mood for today's wet weather, I decided to wear blue to work today. Blue does not just stands for Monday blues. It also stands for Lazy Smurfs! Bwahahahahah...

I head to work and since I'm a Lazy Smurf today, I went out for brunch like super long! Three hours long! Man, that was some hookey! Even my diet is playing hookey! *Actually my diet has been playing hookey for quite some time now .. Teeeheeeee*

Now, I'm sitting at my desk writing a post when in fact I had to finalise a report and give an indication. *Just asked the cute intern to do something for me. He smells nice today.*

Reminder

I need to remind myself to keep my temper in check. 

I need to remind myself to keep calm in every situation.

I need to remind myself to think beforehand before doing something. 

I need to remind myself to think twice before saying anything, especially anything bad.

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Anything that comes out of your mouth comes from two places - brain and heart. The challenge is to use which one. 

Oppa Gangnam Style!!

So erm I'm pretty sure that everyone should know this song by now, what's with the dance and the catchy tunes. Youtubers even make a whole lot of parody based on it. I was getting sick of all those parody really. But I got to admit. There's one reason where I think I like the song.

The reason? When my Korean guy crush whatsapped me changing the "sexy lady" part to "sexy are-5th" *swoons*

It's nothing much but I guess when your crush did that, you just feel like the whole world is smiling on you =)

Lest We Forget

Sometimes I forgot. 

I forgot that I was once a bright and cheerful kid.

I forgot that I was once confident in the way I look and walked. 

Most importantly, I forgot that I was once a winner in the race against life. 

Haneunim-ya, please help me in this dark times of mine. Help me to realise that I am special in my own unique way. That I am a star that shines oh so bright. That even in all of my imperfections, I can find that perfect tune in my life. That even if the whole world is against me, I'll stand tall and tough. Most importantly, please help me to accept myself wholeheartedly. To accept myself as who I am. To accept all of my imperfections. To face the world and say out loud, "I am are-5th and I am proud to be who I am." 

I did get quite a hefty bonus for Raya. And yes, I may, err scratch that, have spent quite a big amount in less than a month. What can I do? I'm a shopaholic who has low self esteem and confidence and view myself as superbly inferior than others who turns to shopping and beauty stuffs (and sexual stuffs!) to cover my imperfection. Which results in me portraying an image that I come from a wealthy family when in fact I am from a middle income earner family. However, I know about it and accept it wholeheartedly and to me, it is much better than a certain someone who earns much higher than me, get a much heftier bonus than me, who is at times indifferent to his family financially. Who at times too stingy to fork out money for the comfort and satisfaction of his family.

I know your good intentions and I thank you for that. But I would rather spend than be a cheapskate!

Stress + Boredom = ???

Yesterday I had my hair cut out of stress. If before this I really, absolutely hate my slightly and curvy, this hairstylist made me fall in love with my hair! It's like he can hear my wishes ion my heart! I have been wanting to have this kind of style for so long but most of the time I saw only a straight hair can pull if off so well. He make a version for curly and taught me how to recreate it. Being the noob and hairstyle blonde that I am, I kind of failed today to recreate the style T.T

Today, out of boredom, I decided to go to the salon again to do hair treatment, and because I am a regular, I got quite a discount! Now it's like my hair is in its best condition XD. Oohh and also I bought the moulding clay that the stylist used on me. Hopefully now I can do justice to my hair *fingers crossed*



P.S. Did I mentioned that my stylist is one hell of a cute guy? XD At first my radar was like tingling but he already has a girlfriend. So, maybe my radar karat already?

Stalking mode ON!!

I am pretty bored in the office now. No work to do. Everyone is excited anticipating the coming long Raya breaks. With nothing to do, I decided to make a tweeter account and bombard a few bloggers with following requests. Hopefully they don't mind (and yes I've been stalking for quite some time. A blogger knows XD. You know who you are XD )

So, in case if anyone is a little bit erm, disturbed by my action, kindly email me or something and I'll unfollow you =)

Or I'll just follow you using my other account XD

Of being eighteen and Korean drama

I was reading an episode review on a Korean drama Answer Me 1997. It is a drama about high school and what it feels like to be eighteen. The reviewer sang praises about this drama - how it precisely gives you that feeling that it really was like that years ago when you are eighteen. I never really get what she meant considering the previous episode is about girl and boy relationship, something which I never had. It was until this episode that I really understand what she meant.

Episode's review in question: http://www.dramabeans.com/2012/08/answer-me-1997-episodes-3-4/

As an eighteen years old kid, I once met a guy by accident. I had my eyes on him the moment I saw him. Just a short chat with him, like really short, I've melted. Long story short, turns out we got into the same college, same dormitory (but different floor) and the good thing is, he stills remember me! Immediately we clicked and we became the best of friends. Thanks to his good looks and good manners, we sort of like become one of the popular click at college. He of course gets all the attention, while me being his side kick. I had great moments in college while at the same time, I felt the pangs of one sided crush. Of loving a straight guy.

It felt so .... I'm not sure what kind of adjectives that I can use here. Maybe I can say that everything I do is about him. Eat together with him. Study with him. Basically do everything with him. There are times when he'd go out with his classmates (we were not in the same class) I'd feel sad and left out. It tortures me so much of loving a straight guy. It's like I'm so closed, yet I'm so far.

I never told anyone how I felt about him. I never even told him my feelings. I was scared because as much as I love him, I also don't want to ruin our friendship. In the end, I accepted the fact that even if I can only become his friend, I'm content. There's no way I want to let our friendship ends.

Even though I never tell him I'm gay, I guess he kind of suspects that I am. He has hinted once, but I managed to counter(??) it, I think, and he never asked any more of it again.

Another Monday Blues?

Happy Monday Blues! .... Or not XD

So, I guess it's true what Elle say in Legally Blonde. "Exercise releases endorphins and endorphins make you happy". Yesterday it was operation mow the lawn. I was sweating profusely from morning to evening! so yeah it was quite a bit of exercise. It was tiring at first but after that, it felt good. I mean I don't even have any Monday blues today. Yeay!

Will definitely need to exercise more. Not just to lose weight. But also for my health =)

This is for Leonut.

I'm not even sure why I wrote this but reading your first year experience in uni abroad just sparked my bitter memories when I was one too.

During my first year in uni, it was smooth at first. For a few months. But it goes downhill afterwards. It started when I had a fight with my housemates. Let's just say something bad happened. So, we fought. Me being me, I wasn't good at confronting people. So, I just keep quiet, keep it all inside of me. I didn't really gave them the cold treatment at first. But then it's like they conspire against me and decided to give me the cold treatment. Hence, the counter cold treatment. We never talk to each other. If we need to, we just send sms. A short and precise one. No friendly tone.

Before I knew it, I was shunned and ostracised from my batch. I guess it's something like, when they plan things, they plan it among themselves. And my housemates never told me anything about their plan. So basically I was cut off.

I was a loner during my first year. It seems as if like everything is bent on giving me hell. I have no friend. My best friends are studying in different states. I would call them always, but what can they do for me? They so far from me. They can only give encouraging words to support me. Family is in Malaysia. Basically I was left all alone without any support system. To tell you the truth, I even thought of suicide once. I thought that life is not worth living there. That I can't take it anymore at all. That I really can't stand it anymore....

I did everything that I can think of to make myself happy. I spent my money to shop. I eat a lot of food just to keep me happy. I even had a rebonding. But none of it really makes me happy.

Everything went on for the whole year. My studies were affected. Basically everything were affected. But I guess God loves me.

During my second year, I shift house. So, I got new housemates. I'm not really close to them even though we live in the same house. We are not of the same character you see. They are more religious than me. They are very reserved. But I have to thank them. They are the reasons the remaining years of me living in Aussie is lively.

They decided to tumpang one new student in our house. Long story, I clicked with that new student. Let's name him 'F'. And from F, I met other people and basically my life just goes up and up from there. I also met other good friends since then on and we still contact each other till now. We became each other support system.

Leonut, this year may seem like a hell of a year for you. But don't fret, I'm pretty sure the good ones are coming, just like they came to me.

Ruler of A Nation

I rule a nation .... PROCRASTINATION!!!

I have something that is due on July 12th. It was supposed to be done daily for the last 12 months.

But me being me, I put it off until now :(

Now only I went nervous and wonder whether I can finish it by the dateline.

It stresses me out .... but I deserved it anyway.

I always put things off till the last minute saying "OMG! This is going to be hard to do!"

When I actually do it in the last minute, I always came to realisation that "Hey, this isn't so hard. Why the hell did I put it off till the last minute?"

*sigh*

Grow up are-5th .... Just grow up ......


P.S. I'm already on week 14 in my thing. Left 52 - 14 = 38 weeks to go. Not so bad. Think I can finish it up by this weekend =)

Rant

I just received a sad news. A hunky friend of mine (more like a crush of mine =P) was admitted to a hospital. The diagnosis was that he suffered a mini stroke and the cause was unknown. A small part of bis brain is permanently damaged and it could take months for him to recover or he may not even recover from his symptoms.

This really makes me think twice of the way I lead my life. He's a very fit person. He went to gym/ exercise 4 to 5 times a week, eat healthily, he don't smoke nor drink. Heck he even count his every calorie, sugar and fat in his every meal.  If a person who leads his life like this can get a stroke, I can't even think of what could happen to me. I never exercise. I eat all kinds of food. I sleep way too much.  Basically, a potato couch and also a magnet for all kinds of sickness.

Perhaps it's time to change. Not perhaps. IT IS THE TIME TO CHANGE!

What's in my mind?

All I can think about right now is .............

KOREA!!

But still haven't pack anything yet!!

Raining Man to Happy Boy

Yippee!!

Ok. The day started gloomy. And rainy. The weather will always, always affect the Monday blues in me. If it's sunny, I'll be cheerful. If it's gloomy and rainy, I secretly hope that I can get fake MC so that I can sleep in =p But when you live under the same roof as your boss, that's not really an option *sigh*

Arrived to the office to find that internet still down, and only one, just ONE computer can connect to the internet, which sparks my curiosity. Apparently, it's the ONLY computer in the office that connects to the router through cable instead of wireless! Now, I'm not exactly a tech person, but when internet at your place always crashes, you'd know a thing about troubleshooting it.

Long story short, a check with TM and a little tweaking on my own, and walla! Internet is back on! And my two faced colleague suddenly is nice to me today =) I'd say for today, I'm happy. Working in a hostile environment, is really not good for your performance.

Now, back to work...... =))

Of Kerja and Cantik

It's been quite some time since I blog.

Workload is increasing and no, I'm not complaining. I like having my workload increased. After having quite some time of slow paced working aka no cases on hand aka makan gaji buta, this past few weeks has been making me go for inspections, go to Land Office, meet clients etc. I don't say it often but during this time, I really love my job =)

On another note, just last week the dermatologist for the skin care that I'm using, flew from US to this small town here. So, I took the opportunity for him, a real dermatologist, and not a therapist which I frequent, to check my skin. Result? Meh, same old, same old. My skin is way too oily. Quoting his words, "Your skin is too, too, too, too, too, too, too oily!" He suspects its something to do with what I eat. So, he said no more chocolates, biscuits (does chips count?), milo, chicken skin, peanuts and seafood for me. He said these are the things that can cause oily skin. I can skip the milo, the chicken skin (this is hard!), the peanuts, the biscuits, but chocolate and seafood? Alamak!! 

He prescribed me some more products but he specifically said that I need to get my internal problem fix first. Or else the products he prescribed is not going to do any work. But luckily, the therapist understands that I am having quite a tight budget. She advised me to prioritise the detox drink first, only then buy the external products. So, that is going to be included in June/ July budget? For the time being, I'll stick to my detox supplement that I got from Shaklee, along with my other supplements from Amway. And also to stop eating all the stuff that's making my skin oily. 

So, that's juts about it. All the 'interesting' events ever since I'm resting for a while from blogging. =)

2nd Quarter of 2012

The second quarter of 2012 has officially started but none of my plans have worked out ..... so far :)

Yes, are-5th. It is indeed a good news, somehow, considering you still have nine months to ensure that you work out your plans.

However .....

NEED TO WORK HARDER! ADD MORE OIL! PERSEVERE MORE!

On another note, financial budget has been such a bitch for these past few months. and it will still be a bitch until May. I forecast a more stable and better financial status in June. So I've so far make mental plans on what need to be done so that I won't over budget. Eg. just have a hair cut and no hair treatment. My hair and skin care products need to be used sparingly to last me at least until May. Kau nak habis, kene habis at least after 31 May 2012. More economical dishes (but it's not economical anymore. Buy a little of this and a little of that without rice and water can reach RM 5-6). I also need to learn how to drive properly, so that I can save my fuel costs (but how lehh??).

I'm... I'm... I'm...

I think...

I think...

I think...

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOO HORNY!!!

Mother, Mother, Mother

I was on my way to the office. Perhaps a couple of steps more when I heard someone's crying. 

I was expecting that it will be a girl crying, reprimanded perhaps by her parents or maybe she just cried because she did not get what she wants. 

To my surprise it was a woman. A woman in her maybe 50s and her son is consoling her with her grandchildren just looking at her. 

The story begins....

Right across my office at first floor is a health/ therapy centre known as Ceragem. They say that the therapy can do wonders for your health. So, this son is bringing his mother there. Somehow after she alighted her car, she tried to walk on her own instead of getting help from her son which resulting in her tripping. My guess she fell down hard because the way she cried. 

Somehow, hearing her cries really breaks my heart. It makes me ponders whether I'll be able to do a good job taking care of my parents when the time comes just as how they care for me all these years.

"As we grow up, remember that our parents are growing old" - Anonymous

Y U NO DELIVERY??!!

This is unacceptable!

Mommy and I decided to have fast food for dinner today. First choice McDonald's.

Dialled the delivery number but surprisingly, I can't get through even after numerous attempts.

So, dump McDonald's. Dominos, we choose you! *cricket sound*

Unfortunately, Dominos don't make delivery to my place.

Now, this is very much puzzling. My place is only 5 minutes away from the city. 10 minutes tops. And you don't freaking do delivery here?! To make the pizza normally it will take around 15 minutes. You have another 15 minutes to fulfil your 30 minutes delivery promise. So, why can't you deliver to my place?!

Arrgghhhhhhh...!!!!

Now, resort to maggi lor. Or maybe I'll cook some spaghetti. Malaysian style...

SPAGHETTI GORENG KAMPUNG SATU!!!!!

Lunch

I was going to put on the photos of my lunch but errr, I forgot to take the photos =p

It's a simple lunch. Or maybe one will call them as snacks.

A set of takoyaki and chicken pop.

I think I'm not full but I'm satisfied.