It has been a turmoil these past few weeks.

Really have no mood to update blog.

Frankly, I don't have any mood to do anything at all.

Really feel like I can't feel happy right now with all the things that are happening now.

That I don't deserved to be happy right now.

Cannot be happy. Cannot laugh. Cannot anything ...

The blog will might be dead for a few weeks. Months even.

Will update again if I find that silver lining ....

Till then .......

Oppa Gangnam Style!!

So erm I'm pretty sure that everyone should know this song by now, what's with the dance and the catchy tunes. Youtubers even make a whole lot of parody based on it. I was getting sick of all those parody really. But I got to admit. There's one reason where I think I like the song.

The reason? When my Korean guy crush whatsapped me changing the "sexy lady" part to "sexy are-5th" *swoons*

It's nothing much but I guess when your crush did that, you just feel like the whole world is smiling on you =)

Lest We Forget

Sometimes I forgot. 

I forgot that I was once a bright and cheerful kid.

I forgot that I was once confident in the way I look and walked. 

Most importantly, I forgot that I was once a winner in the race against life. 

Haneunim-ya, please help me in this dark times of mine. Help me to realise that I am special in my own unique way. That I am a star that shines oh so bright. That even in all of my imperfections, I can find that perfect tune in my life. That even if the whole world is against me, I'll stand tall and tough. Most importantly, please help me to accept myself wholeheartedly. To accept myself as who I am. To accept all of my imperfections. To face the world and say out loud, "I am are-5th and I am proud to be who I am." 

Still traumatised by the accident.

Even though I wasn't hurt physically.

I guess I was hurt more on psychology.

That guy practically went superman in front of me. 

Luckily he's still alive.

If not, I don't think I'll be on the road any time soon. 

Let's pray that I'll get through this.

P.S. Oii people! I don't smoke okay! Smoking is bad for your health. Sekian iklan Kementerian Kesihatan hari ini. 

I'm not sure whether I'll be the same anymore.

My hands have stopped shaking.

I can move properly now.

My breath is at its normal pace.

Perhaps it's God's way to tell me something.

But what is it?

Naked (pallette)

I am feeling ever so ..... naked right now :(

Needed to do some house chores this morning before I go to work.

Before I knew it, time has passed and I was really, really, really late for work.

Took a quick shower and put on my clothes.

Didn't even have time to prettify myself (Aiden! Pinjam wording Peanut!)

That's why I'm feeling ever so naked and ever so unglam and ever so ugly T.T

Shoes

Never assumed about anyone until you have walked in their shoes ...

It's nothing about life. Okay maybe a little.

It's so friggin hard walking in these shoes! Let alone driving with it!

I gotta salute those traders or farmers or estate workers or anyone that needs to wear these shoes every single day for a very long hours to do their job ...

As for me, I need some time to get used to it ....

Of weddig, bestie and annoying bf

This evening something pissed me off. Like really pissed me off.

I went to a wedding invitation of a high school friend of mine. Planned to go with my bestie but she needs to go to another invitation first. So, she asked her bf to go with her with him fetching her at 2 o'clock and I'm supposed to meet them at 3 o'clock. At 3 o'clock I arrived ad called her. She said she'll be late. Knowing her, I thought she'll only be around 5 minutes late. Little did I wonder she's late for 1 freaking hour! I was about to leave as I was very annoyed! (I know I shouldn't have waited for a whole 1 hour but bestie maa .. I trust her lah).

She was very apologetic as I presumed she'd be. I was mad but I was even mad at her bf because I'm very sure that it was him that was late. I thought the incident ends at that. Who knows the bf made even more annoying incidents.

Oh before I go further, let it be know that I suspected that her bf is actually gay. Or maybe he's bi.

1. He wasn't actually invited to the wedding. He went there as my bestie's bf. What ticks me off is that he brought two boys with him! The boys were like around 11 to 13 years of age. He claimed that they were his adik angkat. Now we all know if you are gay, adik angkat can means a whole lot of different meaning. Though I think they were a little too young to become toy boys. And even if I gave him benefit of the doubt, that I really do believe that they are his adik angkat with no sexual agenda in it, do you really have to bring them anywhere you go? Up to the point where you are going out with your girlfriend?
2. He's very anti-social! He did not interact with his gf friends at all! The only people he interact with is his adik angkat. He listens to their every whim like a slave listens to his master! I mean at that time I was like "Are you going out with my bestie or with your adik angkat?"

End up I was so annoyed and mad that I went straight back home after. 

If he really wants to turn straight, he needs to step up his game because if he continues what he's doing, he's only going to hurt my bestie. Right now, I only pray that whoever my bestie is going to marry, that man is going to treat her right and will never hurt her. Much better he's really sincere in wanting to marry her and not just wishing to marry just to turn straight.