Clean House

So, what can be constitute as clean?

Nicely arranged items? Sparkling items? Smooth flooring? No dust, cobwebs or anything that is related of that?

What if it's a wooden, kampung house? Is it acceptable that items are not arranged carefully, they are not sparkly? There's no dust or rubbish or any kind of that but there's some feeling in the air that just didn't feel right.

Or perhaps it was because they way I grow up. I am a city boy after all. So, perhaps the way I perceived as clean is not the same as theirs?

But their children have all become city kids now. Don't they have a sense to clean their kampung house?

I'm perplexed.

Or is it because I just simply hate going back there that I criticize everything?

I did get quite a hefty bonus for Raya. And yes, I may, err scratch that, have spent quite a big amount in less than a month. What can I do? I'm a shopaholic who has low self esteem and confidence and view myself as superbly inferior than others who turns to shopping and beauty stuffs (and sexual stuffs!) to cover my imperfection. Which results in me portraying an image that I come from a wealthy family when in fact I am from a middle income earner family. However, I know about it and accept it wholeheartedly and to me, it is much better than a certain someone who earns much higher than me, get a much heftier bonus than me, who is at times indifferent to his family financially. Who at times too stingy to fork out money for the comfort and satisfaction of his family.

I know your good intentions and I thank you for that. But I would rather spend than be a cheapskate!

http://www.dramabeans.com/2012/08/answer-me-1997-episodes-9-10/

Dang it!

The pain of loving a straight guy. We love them but we cannot tell them. What's worst is when that straight guy is your best friend. Whatever it is, I think I'm going to talk to my crush-turn-besties now XD. Though knowing him, it will be a while before he reply :(


P.S. What do you think is worst? Confessing your crush to someone and your crush rejected it or confessing your crush but your crush didn't take it seriously?

Asian H&M Dressing Room Hottie

Okay. I read it from will.i.am post maybe? About this H&M dressing room game, sorta.

Can I please, please, please have him on my bed tonight? Maybe a little sweaty underneath those lather vest?


Edited - The link was taken from Aiden's blog. Damn my short term memory ...

Stress + Boredom = ???

Yesterday I had my hair cut out of stress. If before this I really, absolutely hate my slightly and curvy, this hairstylist made me fall in love with my hair! It's like he can hear my wishes ion my heart! I have been wanting to have this kind of style for so long but most of the time I saw only a straight hair can pull if off so well. He make a version for curly and taught me how to recreate it. Being the noob and hairstyle blonde that I am, I kind of failed today to recreate the style T.T

Today, out of boredom, I decided to go to the salon again to do hair treatment, and because I am a regular, I got quite a discount! Now it's like my hair is in its best condition XD. Oohh and also I bought the moulding clay that the stylist used on me. Hopefully now I can do justice to my hair *fingers crossed*



P.S. Did I mentioned that my stylist is one hell of a cute guy? XD At first my radar was like tingling but he already has a girlfriend. So, maybe my radar karat already?

Stalking mode ON!!

I am pretty bored in the office now. No work to do. Everyone is excited anticipating the coming long Raya breaks. With nothing to do, I decided to make a tweeter account and bombard a few bloggers with following requests. Hopefully they don't mind (and yes I've been stalking for quite some time. A blogger knows XD. You know who you are XD )

So, in case if anyone is a little bit erm, disturbed by my action, kindly email me or something and I'll unfollow you =)

Or I'll just follow you using my other account XD

If you really wish to be MY boss, go ahead and ask for the key to the room. I have them. I'll only do what you ask only after you become my boss. Until then, it's HELL TO THE NO!

Intai-Intai

Good looking face! I can imagine all sorts of things with him! XD

Of being eighteen and Korean drama

I was reading an episode review on a Korean drama Answer Me 1997. It is a drama about high school and what it feels like to be eighteen. The reviewer sang praises about this drama - how it precisely gives you that feeling that it really was like that years ago when you are eighteen. I never really get what she meant considering the previous episode is about girl and boy relationship, something which I never had. It was until this episode that I really understand what she meant.

Episode's review in question: http://www.dramabeans.com/2012/08/answer-me-1997-episodes-3-4/

As an eighteen years old kid, I once met a guy by accident. I had my eyes on him the moment I saw him. Just a short chat with him, like really short, I've melted. Long story short, turns out we got into the same college, same dormitory (but different floor) and the good thing is, he stills remember me! Immediately we clicked and we became the best of friends. Thanks to his good looks and good manners, we sort of like become one of the popular click at college. He of course gets all the attention, while me being his side kick. I had great moments in college while at the same time, I felt the pangs of one sided crush. Of loving a straight guy.

It felt so .... I'm not sure what kind of adjectives that I can use here. Maybe I can say that everything I do is about him. Eat together with him. Study with him. Basically do everything with him. There are times when he'd go out with his classmates (we were not in the same class) I'd feel sad and left out. It tortures me so much of loving a straight guy. It's like I'm so closed, yet I'm so far.

I never told anyone how I felt about him. I never even told him my feelings. I was scared because as much as I love him, I also don't want to ruin our friendship. In the end, I accepted the fact that even if I can only become his friend, I'm content. There's no way I want to let our friendship ends.

Even though I never tell him I'm gay, I guess he kind of suspects that I am. He has hinted once, but I managed to counter(??) it, I think, and he never asked any more of it again.