In a nutshell, after calculating all of my expenses which includes my needs and wants, I am short of RM 100. It seems little. I mean I can tweak here, tweak there a little bit and I can make do. However, what bugs me is that it is going to leave me no flexibility.
The major items that are going to increase my financial planning is going to be my loan and a beauty supplement that is supposed to help me become fairer. I'm vain. We've established that, so let's move on. I am not having second thought about my loan because the purpose of the loan is for my savings, so I'll just let it sit in the bank and watch it grow. The thing that gives me second thought is the beauty supplement.
If I succumb to my want and buy that supplement, of course there could be the possibility that I can become fairer than I am now. But what good is fair skin if I can't buy things that's impulsive like clothes or food or something like that? What good is fair skin if I can't do my other beauty rituals like going for facials or waxing (that is in the plan for this year) or hair cut or hair treatment? What good is fair skin if I can't lavish my nephew once in a while with toys, clothes or food?
So, basically there're two options that I can go with.
1. Forego the beauty supplement. This way I can have extra RM 320 in hand that I can use it for anything that I want.
2. Buy 1 pack of the supplement instead of 2. This is more like a compromise. I mean I still buy it and reap in the supposed benefits, but I maybe going to see improvements slower instead of consuming it as per suggestions. So, that lefts me with RM 110 in hand.
My heart is saying just go buy the supplement without thinking of the consequences and my brain is telling me to stop and think. Think which options I am going to take. I am sort of like equally inclined to both options. Option 1 because of the money and Option 2 is because of the supplement and money (though lesser money than Option 1).
*sigh* Why does beauty have to be so expensive. *punch walls*
Or maybe I should just accept my skin colour? Because that would solve a whole lot of problem. Maybe not whole lot. Just this problem.