This is for Leonut.

I'm not even sure why I wrote this but reading your first year experience in uni abroad just sparked my bitter memories when I was one too.

During my first year in uni, it was smooth at first. For a few months. But it goes downhill afterwards. It started when I had a fight with my housemates. Let's just say something bad happened. So, we fought. Me being me, I wasn't good at confronting people. So, I just keep quiet, keep it all inside of me. I didn't really gave them the cold treatment at first. But then it's like they conspire against me and decided to give me the cold treatment. Hence, the counter cold treatment. We never talk to each other. If we need to, we just send sms. A short and precise one. No friendly tone.

Before I knew it, I was shunned and ostracised from my batch. I guess it's something like, when they plan things, they plan it among themselves. And my housemates never told me anything about their plan. So basically I was cut off.

I was a loner during my first year. It seems as if like everything is bent on giving me hell. I have no friend. My best friends are studying in different states. I would call them always, but what can they do for me? They so far from me. They can only give encouraging words to support me. Family is in Malaysia. Basically I was left all alone without any support system. To tell you the truth, I even thought of suicide once. I thought that life is not worth living there. That I can't take it anymore at all. That I really can't stand it anymore....

I did everything that I can think of to make myself happy. I spent my money to shop. I eat a lot of food just to keep me happy. I even had a rebonding. But none of it really makes me happy.

Everything went on for the whole year. My studies were affected. Basically everything were affected. But I guess God loves me.

During my second year, I shift house. So, I got new housemates. I'm not really close to them even though we live in the same house. We are not of the same character you see. They are more religious than me. They are very reserved. But I have to thank them. They are the reasons the remaining years of me living in Aussie is lively.

They decided to tumpang one new student in our house. Long story, I clicked with that new student. Let's name him 'F'. And from F, I met other people and basically my life just goes up and up from there. I also met other good friends since then on and we still contact each other till now. We became each other support system.

Leonut, this year may seem like a hell of a year for you. But don't fret, I'm pretty sure the good ones are coming, just like they came to me.

Ruler of A Nation

I rule a nation .... PROCRASTINATION!!!

I have something that is due on July 12th. It was supposed to be done daily for the last 12 months.

But me being me, I put it off until now :(

Now only I went nervous and wonder whether I can finish it by the dateline.

It stresses me out .... but I deserved it anyway.

I always put things off till the last minute saying "OMG! This is going to be hard to do!"

When I actually do it in the last minute, I always came to realisation that "Hey, this isn't so hard. Why the hell did I put it off till the last minute?"

*sigh*

Grow up are-5th .... Just grow up ......


P.S. I'm already on week 14 in my thing. Left 52 - 14 = 38 weeks to go. Not so bad. Think I can finish it up by this weekend =)

I don't know why I am so emo today.

Woke up with a heavy heart.

Then, kene nag saying that I lack competency in the eyes of my colleagues because of the way I behave. As far as I concern, I only choose this field because they wanted me to do this. No asking my opinion. No asking what passion do I have. Wait they never instill any passion in me. So, what passion do I have also I don't know. And now, they want to bring my competency issue? Please lah. After all of this time? The only reason I stay in this course is because of you and the stupid company that I'm working with which is not entirely a nice  company to work with. But what choice do I have. I need the money.

Right now I am fighting with myself to stay on this course. I know the pros and the cons. I am just fighting to keep myself motivated to stay in this field. I am trying to keep myself sane in this kind of life I am living. I am rebelling because I don't like the way I lead my life today. I feel like I've lost a part of me. Or a major part of me.

You have no idea how sometimes when I drive I just have the urge to let go of the steering wheel and press the accelerator to the max and let whatever things to happen to me. Sometimes I just don't care anymore.

I'm just tired. I know what I have to do but my heart isn't just in it anymore.

Weatherman ....

The weather has been rather unforgiving.

It was so hot and the heat was unbearable!

You can still feel the heat at night!

For the past few weeks, air-cond has been my best friend. I blast it to the coldest temperature every time I sleep without even thinking of the bills.

But for these past few days, big bro is down with fever. So, no air-cond for me :(

But tomorrow he's back to his working place and I'll have the room for myself once more! Yeay for air-cond! And I think I'll put the air-cond in the office to its maximum capacity tomorrow :)

IT'S A SIGN!

IT''S A SIGN!!

I have been trying to download a porn video ever since yesterday but it kept failing. Always say that the downloading got interrupted ... T.T

Is it a sign from the 'guy up there'?

Or perhaps it's a sign from the universe that I need to stop *cough*masturbating*cough* and start errr ... enjoying myself with another person(s) .. Hmm ...

But .. But ...

I'M A VIRGIN!!


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Edit:

Finally!! I did it!! It's a sign!! I can keep my virginity! Bwahahahahahahahaha

Question?

Is it normal that just anyone who is beefy and hunky and have bulging muscles in every parts of their body to work as a personal trainer at any gym WITHOUT any proper qualifications at all? I thought they must at least have some certs of something like that ....

I have a bank officer who is well, let's just say he's the weirdest one I have ever met.

I'm used to have officers who demand that I give higher value for a property.

I'm used to officers who sounds rather arrogant while talking on the phone.

I'm not used to an officer who hanged up on me while I check the value for them.

Normally when I say "Please hold on while I check the value for you' they would normally hold.

Then again, this officer is also one who called me with the most ridiculous request for value ever.

Hmmm.... Bank officers and their requests is even better than customers and their requests :)

Rant

I just received a sad news. A hunky friend of mine (more like a crush of mine =P) was admitted to a hospital. The diagnosis was that he suffered a mini stroke and the cause was unknown. A small part of bis brain is permanently damaged and it could take months for him to recover or he may not even recover from his symptoms.

This really makes me think twice of the way I lead my life. He's a very fit person. He went to gym/ exercise 4 to 5 times a week, eat healthily, he don't smoke nor drink. Heck he even count his every calorie, sugar and fat in his every meal.  If a person who leads his life like this can get a stroke, I can't even think of what could happen to me. I never exercise. I eat all kinds of food. I sleep way too much.  Basically, a potato couch and also a magnet for all kinds of sickness.

Perhaps it's time to change. Not perhaps. IT IS THE TIME TO CHANGE!

Gross but A Good Motivator?

Source: Facebook.com

One of my friend shared this photo in Facebook. It really makes me think twice on eating McDonalds anymore. I told someone I need my motivation. And I have been very hard telling myself that I need to find my motivation which apparently lost along the way. This can really be my motivation. Perhaps I should print it large and put it at some place where I can see it frequently. Maybe I should do that .... *still thinking whether mum will protest having this photo in my room. They ARE naked women anyway*

Trying to catch up on my fellow bloggers posts since the days I gone MIA is ..... a little bit tiring ... Guess I'll wait for their recent ones and continue from there ......

Durian Porn

After lunch hour, I went out for an inspection. It didn't take long. Just about half an hour. But it took me an hour to get back to the office. Reason being?

Durians..! Lovely, thorny durians!

I ate two durians on the spot and tapau 5 back home for myself and mum and dad. Funny thing happen when I was having a conversation with the seller.

Seller: Besar bang isi dia. Tebal dia boleh sampai 2 inchi! 

Me: Ye ker 2 inchi? Macam tak percaya je..

Seller: Iyer bang. Memang tebal. Saya rasa, picit-picit memang tebal bang! Memang sedap lah bang. Sekali masuk mulut memang sedap giler lah bang..

Which then it hit me ...... =p

Korea: Day 1 - Touch Down

We landed in Incheon early in the morning, around 6.30 a.m. perhaps. We took Air Asia X and it was my virgin flight with them. Let's just say that I had a crappy flight. I can't sleep at all for the whole duration of the flight. I was like pejam celik pejam celik throughout the flight. At first I thought of getting myself their portable in-flight entertainment but the price is just meh and the movies are well, not so interesting. Even their selection of music is meh.So, it was a 6 hours of crap for me T.T

Now back to the trip instead of whining.......

The moment we landed we became so excited! Take pictures here and there. We even took pictures of the signboards, because they are written in Hangul! Kekekeke...... Proceed to the immigration, was quite shocked to see way too may people queueing up to get their passport stamped. Not making it any better, at that same time 4 flights have landed - Air Asia X, Malaysia Airline, Korean Air and Air France - and only 5 immigration counters were open. To make it even worst, they did not switch on the air cond! Or maybe they did but there were too many people cramped in a small area making the place feel pretty warm.

After we are done with immigration and picked up our baggage, we did a quick freshen up, well the ladies did. But I was so sweaty that I need a shower, albeit an express one. Apparently there's a Korean spa in the airport and I have to pay KRW 10,000 to enter. So, ok lor. Pay up and get in and then .... o_0 Men! Naked everywhere! Grrrr..... Yuummmm!!! =p I did not make any research on the etiquette of Korean spa and at that time I really don't care about it because we need to catch our pre-booked cab, which will arrive in 5 minutes. I quickly took a shower and wrapped myself in my own towel (they provide towel for you but it was a small good morning-like-towel) and crap .... Apparently I broke one of their etiquette. There's a reason why EVERYONE are naked. Luckily I'm a tourist so they just give me a look and turn away. Didn't manage to enjoy the amazing scene though ..... but it was a different story at night time .... Ngeh3... That will be in the final part of day 1 in Korea :)

Feeling fresh, we go to see our cabbie. He's pretty upset that we were late. Yes, the Koreans are very particular about punctuality. One of their good traits. It took us an hour from Incheon to reach Myeongdong.  We tumpang our bags at our guesthouse and off we go for brekkie and planning for the day trip. Oohh.. Even nak tumpang our bags at the guesthouse also got problem. We inform to the manager that we are going to tumpang our trolley bags there for 2 days earlier in our email. So, he said ok. When we arrived we thought of tumpang-ing our backpack as well because there's no way we're lugging that heavy backpack all day! And that's where problems occured. Dia tak bagi tumpang weyh! That small backpack dia tak bagi. We only need to put it till evening because we are going to Incheon again to spend our night there as we are going to Jeju the next day. So, the contents of the backpack are all the necessities for our Jeju trip. That's why they are heavy. It seems that they are very strict like that. Like if you don't inform them earlier, they won't let you do that. The manager said it's burdening him to keep our backpack. In my mind I was like, "Backpack kecik je kot. Burdening apa kejadahnya!"So, ok lah. We need to find other alternative. So, we all duduk at a convenience store (convenience store pon ada tempat duduk seyh. Kagum kejap aku), buy a bottle of banana milk each and think what to do next. Sambil-sambil tu, telan lah bread that we brought from Malaysia. Long story short, we tumpang our backpack at another guesthouse. So, kind of them!

Banana Milk!!! Yummm..!!

Next, Gyeongbokgung Palace ......

True to Ourselves

Sometimes we tend to forget, that being ourselves is the most amazing!

Body Shop Haul

Some of you might know that Body Shop is having their promotion until June 10th, which means that their promotion ends this Sunday. I went there a couple of days ago to stock up my shower gel as I absolutely love their shower gels. It's as if like, pakai Body Shop shower gel, terus tak nak pakai yang lain! But of course, that's not necessarily true. My wallet is not that thick >.<

The price is

So, for this post I am going to write about my haul =) And yes, this will be a beauty post ;)

The first thing that I bought is this -

Source: Google.com

It's called Moringa Shower Gel. I fall in love with this one the first time I ever use it, which ends up in me buying THREE 750ml bottles! *grin* I really like the scent. It's floral and the scent will still linger around you after you finished your shower, which means you'll smell really good. And it's a turn on for me to smell a man  who just came out of shower, smelling all nice and fresh. It's just .... emmmmmm...

According to bodyshop-usa.com: First used in Ayurvedic medicine some 4,000 years ago, moringa seed oil comes from the moringa tree, which is native to northern India. It is known as the “miracle tree” due to its wide variety of beneficial uses. In Ayuveda, it is used as a natural antibiotic, an aid in childbirth and for treating liver problems. But that’s not all. The oil was highly treasured by the ancient Roman, Greek and Egyptian civilizations for use in protecting the skin and making perfume. It was so good they even used it to create their own skin smoothing product!


The next item that I bought is Peach Shower Gel and Papaya Shower Gel, one each. 

Source: Google.com

Source: Google.com

I haven't try these products yet. The only reason I bought them is because of the price. It was on Buy 1 Free 1, and one item is RM 22.00, that makes it RM 11.00 each. It's kind of expensive for a shower gel that is this small (it's only 250ml) but it's Body Shop after all. It's scent is sweet and although it's supposed to have peach and papaya scent, I find that the papaya smells really like the peach ones. It's as if there's no difference between them at all. Will try it after my first bottle of Moringa finishes. Or I could just use them alternately. See how first. 

Another thing that I bought is their paddle cushion hair brush. I was tempted to buy them after seeing them featured in a magazine. It says that the brush is good for detangling your hair. Since I have a bit of curly hair (more like straight at the top and curl at the end) I thought this brush will help me to manage my curls better i.e. make it appear a bit straighter. But, meh. I guess I still need to do rebonding after all. I was actually looking for natural and non-chemical ways to straighten my hair. So, if any of you guys out there know how or have some tips, do tell me yah! 

Okie Dokie ...... Got the pictures already. Will blog about the trip soon. Pinky promise! =)

Need to arrange it according to days first, which will happen right after this =)